Dear Mr. Spencer,
I am an agnostic. To me, an agnostic is someone who cannot disprove or prove the validity of religious dogma and faith.
I just felt the need to ask a question. Why did you choose to trade one religion for another. They are all so suspect and, in my opinion, unworthy of man's time and talent. Other than attempting to calm people's death fears, what good do religions do?
I probably won't be able to add too much to your own decision making process. It is true, religion cannot be proven, the existence of God cannot be proved not disproved. So, every man must make his own decision. To be fair, some of the greatest minds and most noble people have chose to believe in God. I think of Ghandi, for example.
So, it becomes personal. I remember thinking a lot about whether or not God exists when I was in the Navy. I finally concluded that He does. I won't go into the examination that led me to that conclusion, the arguments for and against are out there and available to you. You doubtless has spent some time considering them. I hope so. I hope you did not arrive at the position you hold without a lot of thought. Likewise, I hope that Believers do not simply glom onto belief because of family or friends.
At any rate, once I decided that God does, indeed, exist, I thought it was paramount to find out if He had any expectation of me. So I investigated religions. Some are better than others. Mormonism is so full of holes that believing it became impossible for me.
My relationship with God through Jesus Christ is extremely meaningful and real to me. As the Bible records:
"When the officers who had been sent by the chief priests and Pharisees to take the Lord Jesus into custody returned without Him, they gave a most extraordinary reason for their failure to carry out their orders. For, in reply to the demand, 'Why have ye not brought Him?' they gave the strange answer, 'Never man spake like this man.'"
As I read the words attributed to Jesus in the Bible, I said the same thing, "No man ever spoke like Him." I find that reading the richness of His words is still the most amazing thing I do. After more than thirty years of studying about Him in the Bible, I say--in the words of the old hymn--"Every day with Jesus is sweeter than the day before."
Anyway, Dave, that is my story in a nutshell.
I wish you the best of the best in your life.